For a while I didn’t even know…
I started writing this blog around 2 and a half years ago. I had no expectations, no goal and no idea what I was doing. Heck, I still don’t know what I’m doing but it’s been a mad ride since then and if one thing in my life has been consistent it’s this blog. The posts I write now are the same as I wrote way back in 2014, well I mean hopefully they’re better now but the ethos is still the same. I never want the reason for why I started this to be lost or subverted so I’m reminding you guys as well as myself now.
I have decided to completely revamp it, but that in no way signifies a change in what I’m going to be writing about. It’s all going to be the same nonsense, not wearing jeans, how to talk to girls, how to beat the buffet. I can’t imagine me writing anything different to be honest. The old layout was a bit basic and 2 and a half years of this calls for a bit of a change.
As you guys know there’s not really a point to what I write about. I mean I like to write and I have a lot of thoughts mingling in my head so the best thing to do is write them down. If people want to read, then that’s great but if not then I’m happy just using this blog for cathartic reasons. I don’t want this to be about figuring out how to get more people to read or bombarding people with posts telling them to read it. Like I said if people want to read it then that’s great but I really do write this for me. I would be lying if I said I haven’t researched ways in getting more people to read my blog but a lot of the ways in which I would go about doing that will result in me compromising why I write this blog. I don’t want this blog to have a theme or some rigid structure, all it is is a manifestation of my brain.
The reason why I like to write is because it’s a solitary thing. Just you and a computer screen or a piece of paper. You’re doing it because you want to. To be totally honest with you I thought I would’ve dropped this by now but I’ve really surprised myself that I’ve kept it going. And that’s not because I feel any obligation to the people reading it but purely because it just helps me a lot. It helps me make sense of my thoughts and is an insight into my life that not a lot of people get to see. There will be times in all of our lives where we will have to do things we don’t want to do, just to get by. I know that’s coming for me, so until then I’m going to do what I like and it’s all going to be because I want to do it. I will have to spend my life being governed by “the man” one day but that day ain’t today, not by a long shot.
Where was I…? Oh yeah so there will be a point in your life where you’ll be questioning why you’re doing what you’re doing. So for now it’s important to hold on to the things that you love, the things that excite you, the things that make you, you. Don’t become a robot, you’re not here to get up go to work come home, eat, sleep and repeat. What kind of life is that? Not one that any of us want to be living.
This blog is me and it will always be me. Nothing will change that. A lot does change in 2 and a half years, but this won’t… I won’t.